Well, almost 24 hours home after the revelations of the week and, well, I didn’t dissolve into a wet mess of submissive goo, run from the chalkboard of instructions, or even think a great deal about a few of the new requirements aside from making sure the main tasks were done and that I also did some of the Drew work that needed to be done. Frankly, it made me better understand what Thumper was talking about earlier in the week, but I had no feelings of pressure about it.
In addition, my chalkboard items were few but precise and each served a needed purpose of the day. I thought Axel was going easy on me, and, he was, but this is all part of the growing into it role and I very much appreciated it. Since I came home late and he was in bed and then he left while I was still in bed, tonight was our first time together in days where we had four quiet hours and, I can tell you honestly, I sat down on the floor and rubbed his legs for a bit and for the first time in a long long long time, I felt my mind slow down for about 10 minutes, which, if you know me know me, is something good.
Also, today two things happened of note on this subject and a few more on another I may post again in a minute about as they have no place mixing here. Today, taking care of a few things on my list, I found myself truly focused on Axel during that time and where he’d be more happy about me moving what I was moving, etc. That’s not to say the demands of my life, my family (as an example, today, since I was in town, I was also summed to my elderly parents house because the TV was out and panic was ensuing because, here’s the dichotomy, they could not get the season finale of Orange is the New Black to play – they were using the wrong remote and, ewwww, I am all for embracing lesbian prison sex, but Mom?, Dad? really?) Axel, and even Thumper didn’t make waves into the area, I just simply embraced them all with all having their proper place.
The second thing, maybe even the more important thing ever is that I said no to work. You see, I work at a small, but very mighty firm that goes around the world telling people what to do, who to hire, and, as most often in my case, who to fire which they then often have me do too. The man whose name is on my paycheck and the door to my office sent word he wanted to talk to me tonight, only for about 20 minutes. I knew the subject was something I proposed and when his assistant asked if I could call tonight at 7, I said, without much thinking, “no. I cannot. It’s Drew and Axel time tonight.” It flustered her because nobody says no to this man, but her second question was “what about 10 before you leave”.
No again, So, tonight’s lesson of the night, steady course. Steady course, my friends