Hello from another airport lounge.

I am on my way to the other side of the world again, aka, the home of Ferns, to spend a week doing what it is that I do. I hate THIS day though. The day I leave. Once I get there I am fine and coming home I am great, but the next 36 hours are, for lack of a better word, just lonely as fuck as you are somewhere in limbo all day.

As murphy’s law goes, Axel and I are right as rain again and things are grooving along, but I had to leave him a few minutes ago in the drop off lane at the airport and it about killed me, but, it’s the first step toward getting back home again so that’s what counts. I laugh too because there is some balance as when I am there, I actually talk with Thumper and Axel more than when I travel inside the US, because it’s much easier to coordinate schedules 15 hours apart – go figure. So, forgive the whining but it feels good to have typed it out.

So, yesterday I posted a picture of my Steelheart in my luggage to my muggle Facebook page by accident. It was one of those moments when I swore I hit the little T icon versus the F one on my phone, but I fucking did not and LUCKILY Thumper saw it within about 10 minutes and was able to get in touch with me and I quickly removed it. That said, in those 10 minutes it received two likes from one of Axel’s friends, the one with the same name as Thumper, and from one of mine who, luckily has a kinky side a mile wide. The picture was rather obscure so I didn’t worry about it that much until later in the afternoon I got a call from a friend of mine, whose husband had sent her the screenshot, asking, “just curious, what was that chrome bullet shaped thing with the hole in the end?” I was mortified and amused all at the same time.

Now, she is one of the few who knows about Thumper the boyfriend but, to my knowledge, doesn’t know ALL about Thumper and me, so that just got my mind wandering. I called her back and was able to just say “sex toy – let’s not discuss” and that was the end of that, but fuck, that was a close call. Thumper has given me pure shit about it since it happened, which I deserved, but I will be way more careful now.

Finally, assuming most of you are like me and have a side that writes about this stuff AND have a muggle like blog or a very muggle Facebook page, do you have people who follow you in both places? For me, Thumper doesn’t count, but there are about three people who know both and have the ability to follow both, but I have never asked them point blank which they pay attention to more. I am not nervous about these people at all, but some I would be which is why I am so guarded now (minor hiccup yesterday excluded) because since I have started it so publicly, it’s now about more than just me. It’s my husband, my boyfriend, my family, their families and my career that could all be tracked back, so caution is needed and I feel no shame in not revealing, but suspect there are some who would tell me to own it all which is just bollocks.

I am just curious to hear other’s points of view about it. Yours?