‘Tis the season to orgasm
Or Not?
It is the time of year I am given that one choice to have an orgasm or not. It happens each year between Christmas and New Years. Once a year. Every year. Forever, or until forever stops. This year, like the rest, I have a decision to make….
—Makes mental lists of pros and cons.
—Checks list.
—New mental list of pros and cons formed
This is more a behavior of habit. All of the objective reasons why I should or shouldn’t do something is usually guided by my not so objective side. Insert dumb teenager “shouldn’t have done that” story. You can all list your own personal examples in the comments.
I always wonder if I really do have a choice. I mean objectively speaking I have innate free will. I can choose. Master has assured me more than a million ways this is a choice he has allowed me and only me. A choice to choose. An assurance my choice will be respected, of no less a bond or love between us, regardless of the decision. He will be proud of me, regardless which is a fact that, I think, defines my submission to him more than most other things.
I’ve been well trained…..to make choices when necessary, to please my Master, that “I don’t know,” or “whatever you want is fine,” are not acceptable answers when given a choice by Master even down to the little things when my opinion is asked. No, those won’t do. Only a precise answer is allowed.
Denial being a huge part of my being, is self-denial the same as jacking off? This rabbit hole runs deep on this one. It’s some of the things I consider. Quite a conundrum.
I’ll, of course, let you know what choice this slave makes.
Of course the choice is yours but I would lean toward having one in order to help renew the sense of denial. If you forget what it feels like, is it really even denial?
I agree.
Of course, the decision will be yours alone. You’ve gone a long time. Continuing on that track is ok. A reminder may be good. However, as I write, I’m not so certain; will it be too much of a bump in the road?
Now that I’ve confused everyone, I’ll stop and end with my best wishes for a great new year. You guys are awesome!
I am reminded of the Old Wives (or is that now Husbands ) Tale that “If you don’t clear out your pipes you will get sick”.
As others have stated, Jack, it is your choice. As much as I envy You (which is totally), I am not sure what choice I would make. You have achieved a state of mind/soul where the values You cherish go far beyond a bodily function. I would imagine being with the Wonderful Men in your life in a Scene where You all achieve a state of Bliss together (well, Higher Bliss) and if that is the way it flows and happens, So Be It.
Not being hung up on the ‘What If’ and just go with the flow…
I’m sure that these words are as useful as ‘Tits on a Bull’ as we Aussies are prone to say. Either way, the choice will be a good one.
I hope You all had a joyous Christmas and that the new year will bring all of the growth and Love you all desire.