Hi from me. Jack. Life has been busy, to say the least. I have a few blog posts that are sort of in transit, written half way and stopped. Then the whole blog shut down and moved to a different host. I have not had the time to get myself in the right writing mode, so Master sent me a list of questions that have come in via DM’s, Twitter, or from the blog to help me with a new post. In some form or another, some of these, or variations thereof, may have been answered elsewhere but since it’s a new day at the DrewDuality I will start again.
- What do you mean by “every part of me” when you talk about being owned?
Well, examples would include my physical body. I gave that to my Master. My body has changed over the last several years. Choices, that Master made for me. My PA, the shiny Steelwerks encasing my dick (well we call it his. It is just attached to my body and I carry it around for him, well protected). The lack of hair on my body is another example. He owns me, therefore he owns the hair that is attached to me, of course, right before he requires it to not be attached to me. He’s started talking about having me grow it out just because. I am not sure how I feel about that now, but, the good news is my feelings on the subject don’t come into play so it’s his choice.
He makes many of my decisions, so he owns those parts of me to. My thinking, my choices, if you will. He chose the car I drive, the clothes I wear outside of my uniform when at home, the kind of food I can eat on most days. I guess you could say he owns my mind in that respect, as well. We have trigger words (maybe a sort of hypnosis?) that makes my brain and body go to places nobody else can, and I just can’t fucking help it.
He owns my heart. If you ever meet us and see the dopey puppy dog look I have for him, you’d have no mistake that man owns my heart. I guess what I’m saying is that every part of me, is well, every fucking part, they physical, the tangible, and all of those other parts of me that aren’t so tangible but still make me a whole being.
2. “Dear Jack, I find your service amazing and want to be like you, but I am somewhat embarrassed by being submissive much more so by being thought of as a slave – do you have any embarrassment or did you? How did you get past it if so?”
Don’t be (easier said than done, I know). Think of it like this. Everyone probably has a single most prized possession. What do you do with that possession? You take care of it. You do things to keep it in perfect form. As a slave, my Master does that. He takes care of his prized slave. There are times I might run a slight second to his German cars, especially the electric one, but I am always cared for and protected and made better. In return, I hope to do the same for him.
The word “slave” has such a derogatory meaning for some and I absolutely understand that, but for me, it is the nicest thing another human has ever called me because it’s who I am and especially because of my Master, it is a relationship that goes much deeper than I could have ever imagined before him and Daddy.
3. Do you miss access to your cock?
Of course, I do. There are times when I am convinced that sheer force will cause the titanium to explode into pieces and the dick I carry for my Master will be freed. (In my mind that would be a free pass, right?). In reality, if that happened, I’d never touch it without permission. My denial (and sometimes the double denial he gives me when he locks his dick up to deny me that one too) is a symbol of our connectedness and honestly a source of pride. The the only people who have had their hand around my cock for 3 years now is my Master and my Daddy and that is my intention that will be forever.
4. What is it like being plugged all day? Do you ever resent having to do that or want to not be plugged?
Being plugged every day has taken training and time and patience. I’ve come to realize the pros and cons and limitations of the different assortment of butt plugs we have. I know what to expect from each. How I should or shouldn’t sit (depending on the situation and my mood). I very much feel it is a connection between Master and I. In the many ways that I carry my Master with me each day out in the muggle world, I even have him physically inside me. I always have some lube nearby and other things necessary to facilitate removal, if it is absolutely necessary to un-plug, if you will and I have permission to remove it when I have to due to biology, but, otherwise, I have to get permission if there is not an emergent reason for it to come out. It may scare some, but I LOVE it.
5. When did you know you were going to be a slave one day? Was it when you were growing up?
Probably when I met Drew for the first time and asked what was good to have there at the restaurant. He told me what to order and I knew, right then, I would be submitting to him. I never had a clue it would be such a complete of a submission, but even if I did, I would have ordered exactly what he said. Also, I never expected it would be such a source of pride to say, look at that sexy man over there, he owns me. My cage still fills when I see him, my heart skips a beat when he touches me. He completes the parts of me that were never fulfilled before him.
He went from Sir to Master relatively quickly. One day, when I was still allowed on the bed pretty freely, he asked which I most identified with and how I identified him (we were talking about D/s things). Sir just didn’t seem enough. Boy just didn’t seem enough. At least not enough for us. That’s probably the first time I said it out loud that I wanted to be his slave, MY Master’s slave.
6. What’s the worst punishment you have gotten as a slave and why?
That’s a tricky one. I haven’t experienced (nor do I plan to) what my mind sees as the ultimate punishment. Master knows what it is, and I don’t intend to talk about it hear.
Some of my more intense punishments have been ones where I had forgotten to do something, and I had to choose which painful instrument or instruments would be used to deliver the punishment. And then I have to choose how much punishment I get with each of the implements. He ultimately always decides and usually adds to what I say, but he likes my having input. My drive to tackle big obstacles usually gets me in a bigger punishment than I ultimately bargained for, but if I am choosing my own punishment, to a degree, it had damn well better be appropriate at minimum.
7. When did Drew go from Sir to Master to you?
I think it was more of an evolution of our chemistry and our bond over the same kinks that just led us to that point where we were more than just D/s friends, boyfriends, or whatever you want to label it. But there is unconditional love there, too. Master just seemed most fitting.
8. How do you manage this with being a single parent?
There are ups and downs, but most of them are usually nothing any other single parent in the muggle world doesn’t encounter. Some are a little more difficult for a teen to handle, but there are also aspects of my relationship that teen is not (nor should be) privy to. And protecting the teen is the biggest part of my duties as a parent. He comes first, even when it is hard. First and foremost, I will always be the protector and place my teen’s needs above my own. Master and Daddy know that, encourage that, and frankly wouldn’t allow it any other way. In fact, from day one, Master said, “I will never be more than your number two and I understand that” and I melted that day, because I never thought I could find that.
9. What is with the Sunday drives shown on Twitter?
Sunday drives are our get away and do nothing and enjoy the car, the ride, the talks, the radio, the trips to Home Depot for project supplies. They are the times that we just get to be and not worry about the outside world, but in quite a kinky version of the just getting out of the house and being with each other. We love those times and enjoy getting to share that as normal as we get side of ourselves with everyone. And I love the shots where Master is holding my leg, or my hand, or you can see those amazing legs of his in the picture, too. Those are my favorites because I get to show him off, too.
10. Any advice for future slaves?
Don’t be discouraged. It is possible to find the one or ones that will accept you, unconditionally love you, and in return you will each enrich the other’s life more than you ever expected was possible. Now me, I won the fucking lottery of life. I’m not blowing all that luck with any kind of quickness. I’m sticking it out and stretching my winnings forever.
Second, DO NOT BE AFRAID.
Third, DO NOT BE ASHAMED.
Fourth, BE YOUR BEST
Fifth – the combo DO NOT BE ASHAMED, DO NOT BE AFRAID, and DO NOT GIVE UP.
